With a bit of time up my sleeve while on a break with my wife in the seaside city of Warrnambool, I thought I would use this journal entry to reflect back and forward on a couple of things.

At this point in time, I don't know what's happening with my participation in local wrestling. All I do know is that I'll be on shows on April 9, 16 and May 20. For the rest of 2005 I'm paying things by ear - but increasing frustration with certain matters, in particular with me getting the blame for a blow up over an incident in December (which I flatly deny) and the reasons behind my remaining a spectator for PWA for now. Whether or not that is resolved remains to be seen.

Also - an issue that I touched on a few entries back is walking back again. The person involved will be working for ARPW soon - if not on April 16. That's all I need - but I have to put up with it. He's already been told to stay away from me (by me) but what really bothers me is that others believe that he "doesn't have a problem with me". Bluntly - that's BS. He just doesn't have the guts to admit it, and hides behind phoney olive branches which I will not buy. But that stays here, and doesn't go to Melton. I have a job to do, and I'll do it.

But if the enquiry into Aspergers by the federal government either doesn't get off the ground and doesn't look like it, or it goes ahead but fails, I'll be quitting wrestling. I hate doing that because I love what I do. But with these liars getting all the good stuff, and the "true believers" (like me) getting the BS I will really have no choice. The enquiry may give me what I need to stay - in particular the power to be what I really want to be now, a promoter - which is why it's such an important factor.

This is all on top of rushing through a lot of other stuff once I get home from Warrnambool next week. In particular with the project which I want to be fully ready for when I leave on February 26 for Adelaide and most importantly Perth.

And the battle with the Housing Commission!

And this trip is supposed to relax me! As you can see, I have still got a lot on my mind!